Kelly Clarkson was really unhappy after she won American Idol but she's much better now

'Can I Have A Kiss' chanteuse Kelly Clarkson has confessed that she was properly unhappy after she won American Idol.

Talking in the latest issue of Redbook (as quoted here), Clarkson said: "I'm going to be com­pletely honest — I had no one looking out for me. They were looking out for the show, and it was horrible."

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"I was 19 years old. I was smart enough to know that it wasn't about me, but that didn't make it any easier," she continued. "I'm all cried out about it, but my first four years, I hated my life; I almost quit a dozen times."

Thankfully this all seems to be in the past now and it's all because she's shacked up with her manager's son, Brandon Blackstock.

"Where's the kick in the ass? I told my assistant that today. I said, 'I'm just waiting for something to blow up.' She said, 'No, that's what happiness is.' I'm like, maybe I've never been happy! Because Brandon does — he makes me happy."

Hurrah!